not sure if you're a boy or a girl

I got the news that Zabeg died today. I don’t even know what to say or how I feel. It wasn’t real until I called my mom to tell her, and then I just started crying and couldn’t stop. Why Zabeg? I loved him. I can’t even imagine what Emily’s going through. The worst bit was knowing that he suffered. I don’t know. I’m not forming coherent thoughts right now.